I am starting to feel like Carrie Bradshaw...writing about my feelings. Ha.
Wish I had her style to go along with my obsession with writing lately.
I am having a bad day today. Drew's 1st Day of Kindergarten was Wednesday. Only 1/2 the class went. The other 1/2 went yesterday. I got to walk him in Wednesday all the way to the classroom.
Today...different story...
Parents are not allowed past a certain Stop Sign in the Lobby.
The drop off today was so much harder for me for some reason. Maybe because the Stop Sign forbidding me to go any further. I had to just simply watch him walk from a distance to the gym that the kids meet in before the bell rings. The gym that he has not practiced ONCE to go to. Luckily, my sister in law met me this morning so my niece Ashley could walk in with him. You think that would make me feel better, but I cried more this morning than I did Wednesday.
How do I know he got to the gym?
Is he going to be completely confused once he got in there since we didn't practice?
How do they gather all the classrooms?
What if he forgot where his classroom was and gets lost?
I really have not stopped crying since I left. I knew this would be hard, but did not know it would be this hard.
For those of you who think I am crazy: My children have NEVER been to any kind of daycare. I am not used to leaving them all day long without being able to check on them all day. We have been blessed to have our children stay with my Mother in Law and Father in Law since they were born. Only recently we found an in home sitter once a week. And she only has my kids.... And I text her all day as well.
I am that Mother than hears a siren and immediately calls Justin's parents or my sitter. Yep, I'm crazy.
I really do hope this gets easier. I know it will. It's just tough for me right now going ALL day long without talking to him or checking in on him. It's just something I am going to have to get used to.
His lunch box finally came in the mail yesterday. He was insistent on a Cardinal Lunch Box this year.
I left him a sweet note in it. I plan on doing this each day I pack his lunch.
It's kind of my way to make sure he is thinking of me and I'm kinda there with him for lunch.
Here's to a better next week!!!
And a glass of wine tonight....
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